Tempestjonny

For some reason, I wrote a few posts that never got published on my blog. I am mightly upset with this. Now they are kinda of and out of date as they are talking about my feeling before the wedding. But I couldn’t just let them go to waste. So before I add the posts I wrote while i was in Ireland with out an internet connection, here are the Pre Wedding posts.

I’m all alone – 14/01/09
As you may know, the love of my life has gone over the Ireland today. In just over a month we will be getting married, But she still needs to leave me to get everything ready for when we move together. So now, we shall be apart for almost a full month until and week before the wedding.
Shit this is going to be hard. I’ve only been back home for 3 hours and already I’m feeling so alone. I wonder how much hookers cost. NO!!
We’ve never really been away for this long. Even when I was at uni, the longest we were apart was 2 weeks. Plus since we’ve been living together I’ve only had 1 night where we haven’t slept in the same bed. I wonder how much a cheap hooker would be? NO!!

TICK TICK TICK – 18/02/09
The days are ticking away. Not long till the big day is upon us. I’m so scared. Not of getting married. The marriage I’m really looking forward to. Living with my best friend, my lover and knowing that nothing can stand between us. Sounds amazing and I can’t wait.
What I’m worried about is the day. There are so many little things that need to be done. You know the things I mean. The type of things you say “oh these aren’t vital, I’ll do the closer to the day.” Well now its close to the day. So I need to get the sorted, FUCKING QUICK

My Baby’s Back in Town – 23/02/09
She’s landing at 4:30. Hopefully when I get home from work, she will be waiting for me. I am in the most hyperactive mood I have been in for a long time. I’ve felt like a school girl all day……Wait, Can I Change that or the police will read it the wrong way. I’ve felt like a school boy. NO! That’s even worse. I’ve felt like a love crazed madman waiting for his lover to come home for him. Well that sums it up. Just watching the clock until I can get the hell out of work.

It seems I’m reinventing my Website every week atm. But this time it is justerfied. I want a style to run through mywork so that when I hand a potential Employer a CV and they look at my site for a breif view of my work, they see profesional and stylized. So I have made a new front for my site, a new site for my Graphical work and changed my blog (your looking at it) into a personal project site……..well I will do when i get around to it.
I don’t know why I thought this was Blog worthy information, but hey.

Yesterday I found out some big BIG news. My other half. Claudia, the love of my life has just received a job offer for Blizzard. Yes you heard me right. Blizzard. The biggest name in gaming, the maker of the biggest online community and the only games company to have its own convention, Blizzard. She is going to be a GM or Games Master for world of warcraft. They are the people you turn to in game if something goes wrong. Get stuck in a wall, turn to her, Somebody griefing, turn to her, need help learning the game, turn to her.

Believe me when I say this is a dream job. she will be paid to be a working part of her (and over 11 millions others) favorite game. I am so very VERY happy for her and am incredibly happy for her and for us. The thought of her getting into the gaming industry is an amazing feet. Something she should feel very proud about and something I am very proud of her for.

But this does bring a big change to my life. She is not able to do this job from her home PC, much to the distress of myself. the location of this job is not within driving distance. in fact its not with in a train right……hell its not really a plane journey every day. Its in cork in Ireland. Yes that’s right were all going to Ireland. I’m going to have to quit my job to follow her, which I will gladly do. I will no longer be a limey, I will be a Guinness drinking drunk. YAY!

Watch this space.

I realised yesterday that I had several projects and tasks that I have wanted to do for a long long time. But every time I find myself with some sort of gap or ability to proceed with one of my projects, I find myself with either 2 or 3 other projects or a whole heap or real life activities that need to be performed. I’ve just moved house and not all of the boxes have yet to find a home. There is a PC to set up, Videos to pack away, stuff to sell on eBay or cash converters and Dishes that need to be unpacked and cleaned. Then there is all the things that need to be done to keep a clan up and running, mountains of work and car problems. Not to mention the huge pile of tasks needed to get the wedding sorted.

Now I want to point out, I am in no way complaining about having all of these items to do. I love all of them. yes even cleaning up the house. I’m a very active person. If I have to spend a day sitting around watching the TV I feel I have wasted the day. Even if I am sitting on the PC I’m either playing a game, working on a project or sorting out something clan related.

But all I really want to do, is all of the above with Claudia. Sitting around watching some crappy TV show all day, doesn’t feel like a waste if I have done it with her. But I feel it is harder and harder to make the time as work keeps filling up my day and then filling up my weekends. My fav past time is sitting in front of the TV with my arm around my Claudia and the other with a fork in a curry.

But getting to my original point. I seems to be loosing an uphill battle against time. Because no matter how much I do there always seems to be more things that need to be done. I have a script I started for a film in the summer of 2002, I have a film that is complete except the editing. Its been filmed for about a year now, but I have yet to find the time to actually edit the damn thing. And now I have shot myself in the foot by saying I will edit the TF2 Podcast Kritkast.

I now feel like I have made an immortal enemy, who everyday I battle with and every day loose at his hand. My nemesis is an evil I shall never defeat. A dictator with an unlimited supply of torture laid out for me. His name is Time.

So today I ended up getting fitted for my wedding wear. Thats right its tux time. let me start by saying that the day started with me and mark standing in the increadably posh store wearing our iron maiden t-shirts. Not a great start, but atleast they had a sense of humor. well that and a mild fasination with marks boots. For those of you who don’t know. Mark is my best man and a great fucking guy. hes also very short and wheres heavy boots to remain at the same height as the rest of us.

Anyway. So i’m standing there in my top and tails and have a huge sense of realisastion as to what i’m doing. Up until this point, the wedding has been an event happening in the future. Not that I had a problem with it, or wanted to keep it away for a long as possible, but just something i didn’t need to worry about just yet. This was a true shock to the system. It all hit me in that moment. And I fucking loved it. I was going to marry her. A true comitment. never going to be with anyone else. And i’m going to look good doing so.